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Charmayne,
1st Feb, her day.
AHS, 2G.
Teach her how to laugh.

You are my superman.

Posted by Monday, May 14, 2012 8:55 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

EXAMS ARE OVER OMG.
Can you guys feel my joy?!?
Okay anyway, life have been rather smooth sailing these days, for me at least.
So, updates bout concert, handover, and abit about life :)

7thApril, la guiterra nostalgia!
Great experience for AHGuitar ensemble.
I'm honestly very pleased and very proud with everyone's performance.
Our hard work really DID pay off!
Looking at the smile on mr shi's face was simply.. yay :)
I love my quartet, I love mr shi, I love AHGuitar. <3

Guitar handover!
Went surprisingly well too :)
So yep, kinda happy with my post!
Assistant vicepres/secretary & section leader.
Haha dk if I really deserve it, but since I got it, I promise I'll do the best that I can.
New pres: Isabel
New vp: Heidi
:)
Meh, I swear I'll miss the seniors like crazy :(
Thanks Michelle for being such an awesome pres, and always tolerating out nonsense.
Thanks tabitha for being a fantastic vice pres, and for always trying to come up with better things to make AHGuitar ensemble a better cca.
Thanks Samantha for being such a cutie pie and doing a great job as our general affairs.
Thanks Yanguang for always being cheerful, and willing to help out in teaching the juniors.
Thanks andrea for the great performance during our concert, I love you voice, a lot.
Thanks timothy, mengyao and zhangying for coming to practice, sand making cca more enjoyable.
You guys are a joy to be with, and I'm thankful for having seniors like you guys.
Joining AHGuitar will definitely be one of my best decision, I promise.

So I have been mugging for the past two weeks because of midyears. Hmm. I really genuinely hope that my hard work will be worth it (though I have totally no confidence at all)
Went to watch dark shadows with Qiqing, Brandon, anson, Zach, Randall, chunheng, wengkong and anish~
Hope I didn't miss anyone out hehe :)
The movie is.. Idk. Retarded I guess. HAHAH Brandon and I spent like 75% of the time talking crap in the theatre LOLLLL.
Played hide and seek in the mall after that. (yes, at 10.30pm at night) we be so cool and no, don't judge us :)

So I guess life is pretty awesome for me right now. But I really miss going out with AHGuitar sec 3 batch. I miss going out, or just simply hanging around with Xavier, Zhengjie, Yixin, Yanguang, Victoria, Qiqing, Nicole and Heidi.
I may not show it, but I really miss them, a lot :(
Felt like I've drifted away from them recently because of the hectic life I've been experiencing. Sigh.

3A clique is awesome :) I love my babes. Chevonne, jiaxin, ruiqi, zen, Edina. :)
Haters be hating, but we don't care yay :)

Really contented with my life right now. I'm really thankful for everyone who have been by side all along, and I know I can be very moodswingish when I'm stress and stuff, and I thank everyone for tolerating me :)

Brandon will be leaving for Laos next Monday! Have a safe trip and enjoy urself there okay! :)

Holidays are almost here! I promise to do my best and catch up everyone that are dear to me. I promise to try my best to make up for all these while because I know I've been neglecting some ppl due to certain issues.

Till then,
Charmayne :)

还是要幸福。

Posted by Saturday, March 3, 2012 10:28 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Times like this when it actually got me thinking.
What do I actually want?
What am I exactly doing with my life?
Why am I so useless, so dumb, so inferior?
Why can't I do anything right?
I don't know what to wish for, what to expect anymore.
Higher my hopes are, the greater the disappointment.
Everything is so different now.

I'm practically screwing everything up now. Studies, friendship, cca.
Underperforming for every single subject.
:(
Such a failure sigh.

为什么我怎么没有用？
Really wish I can do smt right.
Make someone proud of me.
Is it really that hard, that impossible?
Sometimes I get so tired from trying.
I studied, real hard. And every time I get my results back, I'll get so disappointed. So demoralized.
Is it true that giving my very best isn't enough?

The change in you scares me, a lot.
Feels like I don't know you anymore.
You are no longer the person who's nice and caring. I don't know if you still genuinely treat me as a friend. Or everything you do is just for show.
Why must things turn out this way?

Okay whatever. On the brighter note, I kinda know who really cares about me and who doesn't. It's kinda nice and heartwarming to know that someone really really cares about you.
Really hope these people will stay in my life.

3A is getting better. I guess.
Got closer to more people, and realized that they ain't as bad as I first thought. My perspective of 3A probably will become much better in time to come I hope.

Sometimes I wish I could save you.

Posted by Saturday, February 25, 2012 12:11 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Zoom it's Saturday again.
Time flies man, im serious.
So this week wasn't exactly smooth sailing I guess.
Got back a couple of tests.
22/30 for English free writing
30/40 for bio common test
10/16 for SS
13/20 for amaths
13/20 for emaths
Not up to my expectations but glad I didn't fail any.
So gonna fail chem. sigh

Haven't been in a good mood for the past few days.
Many many things happened and I'm so confused with whatever is going on.
Everyone is changing, to an extent that I don't think I know them anymore.
:(

Give your heart a break.

Posted by Saturday, February 18, 2012 8:20 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Haven't been posting for the longest time ever. So sorry.
Sec 3 life is really hectic.
I've like at least 4 test every week.
Concert is coming, so there's like 3 pracs per week.
Hardly have any time for myself already. :(
Sigh.
So 1st feb, my birthday.
Not the best one but I guess I enjoyed it.
Thanks qiqing, Xavier, yanguang, zhengjie, Vic, Brandon, Randall, Damien and anson for celebrating it with me. <3
14th feb.
Valetine's day. Better than last year's I guess? Received quite a number of gifts and cards from everyone.thanks a lot guys :)

I'm really sick and tired of your nonsense.
Not like I'm not busy enough, not stress enough. Is there really a need to make everything worse for me?
Do you people really enjoy seeing me suffer sometimes?
Sigh hope everything will be fine, really.
And, I really hope everyone around me is okay. I feel so helpless sometimes.

Superman.

Posted by Sunday, January 22, 2012 1:24 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE EVERYONE!
hmm so havent been blogging for real long.
super busy.
anyway, guitar concert is on 7thApril!!
Do support! :D
call or text me if u are interested okay! :D :D
guitar is awesome.
i love them alot, alot.
much more beyond words. <3

Sometimes giving your best is just not enough.

Posted by Saturday, January 14, 2012 8:52 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

HAPPY BELATED CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR.
Have been neglecting this space like shyt,
I'm sorry. ><
So my dec hols was a blast.
One of the best holiday I've ever had.
2G class chalet
Guitar chalet
6A/B combined class chalet
Guitar new year countdown
Every moment with all my friends are precious to me.

So school reopened like, lets say 2 weeks ago?
First week was camp!
Which went really well and I really enjoyed myself.
Kinda got to know my new classmates and doing cheers and dancing with them.
Campfire was really memorable.
At that time, I thought, 3A may not be as bad as I first thought it will be.
But just ONE week, and I'm back to my original mindset.
Second week of school, and there's already problem.
Tell me, how are we gonna spend the next two years together?
In my class of 40, I can say I'm only okay with like less than 15 people in the class?
Compared to 2G, in my honest opinion, I don't really like 3A.
I used to go school to see my classmates and hang out with them during lesson time and not for lessons,
And now?
I go school to attend lessons and not for my classmates.
Sorry to say, but I have no feelings for 3A.
Hope my thinking will change over time.

Homework piling up, stress is overwhelming me.
Homework, test, guitar comm, concert.
I'm struggling with most of the work.
Quartet song nt done yet.
I wonder how long I can actually hold on.
And I realized, now, giving my best, is never enough.
Tell me what to do.
Problems, please stop coming to me. :(
Please. Please. Please.

Ignorance is bliss.

Posted by Friday, November 18, 2011 9:14 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Just when I thought everything is fine,
things have to come crashing down on me once again.
I'm really starting to doubt myself.
Why am I such a failure?
Why am I so insensitive to everyone around me?
Why am I so incapable of balancing all of my friendships?
Why am I so weak?
Why am I emotional?
Why am I such a bad friend?
Yes I know, I can be a real bitch at times.
Yes I know, I'm not perfect and I have many many flaws.
But really, I'm trying my best. My very very best.
Sometimes I really do wonder, is it worth it for me to put in so much effort in trying to salvage a relationship that is already broken?
Am I the only dumb girl who still believe that everything will turn out fine someday?
I've come to a point whereby I no longer know what to do.
Everything seems to be in a mess right now.
I really wish that I have the power to change everything.
I really wish I have the power to make everyone around me happy.
But sadly, I don't.
Somebody tell me what to do.
I'm so tired to continue trying but i know I'm not ready to let go of everything that was once so important to me.
I'm sorry for being weak.
I'm sorry for not being perfect.
I'm sorry for acting how I really feel.
I'm sorry, but this is me and it's impossible for me to change no matter how hard I try.
I'm sorry, I really really am.

Cycling!

Posted by Friday, November 11, 2011 8:50 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

11.10.11
super epic day out with @theflabbykid :D hehe aka BL.
okay so basically, he was supposed to teach me how to cycle. HAHAH
im so glad he didnt go deaf, coz i screamed so freaking loudly that everyone was looking. HAHA.
went to rent a bike which looks smt like

hehe i forgot to take a picture of it though. okay and the bike is WAY TOO HIGH for me, so i had difficulty going up the bike :P and my ass was hurting like shyt after awhile. HAHA
took a few short breaks in between coz i was cuigirl97.
he taught me like step by step and i was going like "u better dont let go!" or "omg im dying" or "i can't! HELP IM DYING" haha im a noisy cyclist :P
and he wanted me to kick my leg and move so he was like
"PUSH PUSH PUSH"
so i started laughing coz it sounded as if i was gonna give birth. HAHAH :P
either that, or i will be like
"Am i straight? VERY STRAIGHT?"
and he will start laughing. LOL
guess what?
i didn't fall at all that day (Y) (OKAY MAYBE ONCE, THANKS TO HIM. HAHAH SUPER EPIC OMG)
i was cui by the end of 2h30 mins :P

slacked by the beach.
sat at the super big rock or whateveru called it.
hehe facing the sea never fails to calm me down and make me forget all my problems. hehe
so the weather that day was (Y)
and it only started raining AFTER we board the bus to go home :P
and if u are wondering why there's no pic, its because i was too tired to take. LOL

ejoyable day out with him :D
and he told me all i need is confidence coz i still cant believe that i can do it, and thus, i cant do it. HAHA

i promise, im gonna post about ky's birthday soon! im lazy to upload the pics :P hehe

life have been real awesome for me,
problems here and there,
but nonetheless, im really enjoying my current holiday life :D
hehe AND, I GOT INTO TRIPLE SCIENCE GEOG <3 happygirl97 :D
really looking forward to 2G class chalet, guitar handover chalet and 6A/6B combined chalet :D
nights all! <3

111111

Posted by 7:16 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

hey!
its 11/11/11 <3
okay dedications to specific people i love in my life :D

@Qiqing:
HEY BABY! thanks for being such an awesome friend and thanks for playing such an important part in my life. i love you alot alot :D thanks for always being there and listening to all my rants when im not happy coz i really appreciate it alot alot. do work hard in sec 3 okay? i know you are a smart girl and u will be able to excel in ur studies if you put in the effort! i believe in you k? <3 keep smiling and stay awesome, know that i love you alot and im always here for u <3

@Victoria:
HEY PRETTY BABE! smile more yo! u look real pretty when u smile :D u are real talented in music, and i wish u all the best for sec 3 music k! :D Do know that you really matter to me alot, though i dont show it at tiimes, but yea, i really really love you k! <3 stay happy and awesome, and im thankful for having a good friend like you :D

@Wenhui:
hey girl! so long never go out with u already! u are always too busy for me :( anyway, grats for getting into the combi u want :D i wish u all the best k? thanks for being such a cute friend, and u are constantly making me smile everytime im with u :D
i really do regret not getting close to u earlier coz u are realy a friend worth hanging out with :D sleep more and have ample rest k! take care of yourself! <3 know that i lvoe u alot and im always here k :D

@Brandon:
hey boy! :D hehe i wished u 1111 already huh. okay but anyway, dont be too stressed up over psl, relax k! :D everything will turn out fine ^^ hehe u are a really super good friend and thanks for being so patient with me! im glad we actually managed to get so close to each other because i think i can really click well with u :D and honestly, i think telepathy really works between us. thanks for everything u have done, and cheering me up when im depressed :D stay awesome and all the best in sec 3! u area a smart boy and im sure u will do well next year! <3

@Xavier:
Hey!! i know we are not exactly close now, but yea, i really wanna thank you for making 2011 a memorable year for me :D i still remember how much we used to dislike each other last year hehe. though we are not as close as before, but do know that i still treat u as my very very good friend :D all the best in trip hist and i really wanna thank u for everything :D

@Valerie:
hey pretty! hope u enjoyed ur birthday celebration the other day :D ur results are damn good man omg (Y) all the ebst in trip lit k? hehe im sorry for quitting malay :( and how i wish we can be in the same class together again! i'll miss u alot k :D thanks for being such a great friend! muacks, love u k :D

its 11/11/11! i wish for world peace and happiness for everyone <3
stay happy and smile k! :D
im thankful for all awesome people in my life.
my 11/11/11 went really well and i hope urs too :D

My lovelies.

Posted by Saturday, October 29, 2011 9:35 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

28th Oct 2011, super awesome.
so basically, we (kaiying, ian, brandon, randall and zach) went to celebrate ky's birthday at ECP.
the weather is perfectttt.
so before i met the guys, was CCA day.
so had guitar from 9-12
and went for some briefing stuff.
AND WE ARE GONNA HAVE SEC 3 BONDING CAMP.
IM SHO FREAKING HAPPY.
okay that's besides the point.
so met them at tnmr, and went lunch at tamp carls' jr.
AND I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO ATE.
bought cake afterwards and off to ecp! :D
reached at about 2.30
watched the guys dumping themselves and pushing each other into the sea.
hehe super epic.
brandon WANTED to push or drag me into the water, but he couldnt coz im cool like that (Y) hehe
so, waited for 2 HOURS before our dear birthday girl came coz she got lost /facepalm cute or what? HAHA
so she came and we had lots and lots of fun
CAKE SMASHING. :P
went to clean up at about 6 plus and head to parkway for dinner :D
but sadly, only kaiying, brandon, randall and I went.
so settled for KFC.
super epic time.
Johnny whoosh, fuzzy wuzzy, what's next, and staring competition.
hehe super awesome :D
left at about 9 and i reached home at 10.15 if im not wrong.
HAHA. So that's how my day ended.
i really really enjoyed myself.
been so long since i went to sleep feeling so happy and contented. life's good i guess. heeh <3

You don't know anything about me.

Posted by Monday, October 24, 2011 2:20 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Interclass games today! Lost both badminton and captain's ball.
But we did well I guess. :)
At least we gave our best, hahah so no regrets.

70.6%, 14th in class, 161 in level
How much suckier can that be?

Don't judge me my dear boy.
You know what, I don't really care what you think of me :)
So what if I'm AA?
So what if I cry for a day but start being happy again in the next day?
Does it freaking concern you?
No, so just shut your bloody mouth up and mind your own business :)
I don't need you to teach me how to live my life.
I'm not here to please you okay?
So get that part straight, boy.
Don't like me just say it in my face :)
Don't act all cool and stuff only behind the computer screen.
I don't care if you read this and start giving comments again :)
Since I posted it, I'm not scared of you reading it, or giving negative comments about me :)
Coz I really, really don't care what you think about me.
I don't mind being friends with you if you want, but since u choose to make me your enemy, then so be it :)
I don't lose anything anyway. Haha

Life is awesome, so far I guess :)
Surprise for kaiying this coming Friday,
And I'm mega excited :)
Celebrating valerie's birthday next week! Hope it will be fun too~
andandand, cheer up my dear qiqing baby <3
I'm here if you wanna talk k!
MUACKS.

All about us.

Posted by Saturday, October 22, 2011 10:42 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Nothing lasts forever.
People change and yea, I'm talking about you.
You have no idea how freaking much you have hurt me.
You broke every single promise that you made, and I bet you cant even remember a single one.
You have turned into the person you promised you will never be.
So I guess all along it's only my wishful thinking that you will stay forever.
Thanks for showing me that it's just me who is naive enough to believe you will stay forever and thanks for proving to me once again that I can never trust anyone.
I trusted you, and yes, it's freaking my mistake.

I want you forever, forever and always.

Posted by 10:29 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Quick update about whatever shyt that's happening in my life.

15th oct(Saturday):
Movie with qiqing, Brandon, Damien and anson.
Real steel is super awesome.
The boy is mega cute and charming.
MUST WATCH.
Yea then after movie went for all saints' church event which lasted till quite late :o
Walked back with Brandon and yea, reached home at about 10.30
Simple but awesome day out with them.

17th October(Monday):
Mini Olympics!
Won our first round of captain's ball against guides but totally got owned by wushu.
Disqualified for basketball coz of stupid reasons and our guys lost in soccer too.
Boring day~

18th October(Tuesday):
STILL mini Olympics.
Watched stairs relay and guitar lose by a tiny bit.
Prize presentation was crap, super boring.
Went botanic garden for ice cream which was plain awesome :)

19th October(Wednesday):
Day out with my prettayes, qiqing, Victoria and valerie.
Shopping at orchard and 313, trying on many many clothes with no intention of buying and eating all the good food that we can find.
Awesome or awesome?

20th October(Thursday):
Got back all our results.
Cried for the whole freaking day.
Okay whatever, call me a loser or whatever but I'm just upset over my marks okay?
Don't tell me I did well compared to many others because I don't think I did, and I didn't cry because I lost to others.
So whatever, screwed up day, screwed up results, screwed up peopl, screwed up guitar practice, screwed up everything.

-skip Friday and saturday-

Okay that's all I guess?
Boring life I know. Can't help it.
Quite proud of myself this few days because I've been a rather happy girl :)
Not 100% happy, but much better compared to the past few months!
Thankful for everything and everyone and me and I sincerely hope that things will be better soon.

I want to be the girl who laugh at the slightest thing, the girl who trust people easily and the girl who is forever optimistic once again.

Today my life begins.

Posted by Friday, October 14, 2011 9:03 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

HEY THERE.
Okay I'm back after a month or so!
And I know I've promised a post on my hk trip, but I'm not using my com now.
So guess I'll blog about it some other day ^^
okay alot of happened these few weeks!
Good and bad.

Let's start from my preparation for EOYs.

Because of EOYs, I've became much closer to Brandon and managed to make new friends ^^
haha I met up a couple of times with him to study and yea, it's productive. Believe it or not :)
I personally felt that I've been a really good girl who really mugged alot for this exam.
So whatever is my results, I know I've done my best, so no regrets :)

Okay next, is EOYs itself.
Er out of 6 papers, I think I screwed up 3. LOL
For once, I felt good after my history paper.
And, this is also the first time that I walked into the examination room, feeling so freaking unprepared for science.
Other papers went generally well I guess, as in not much comments about it!

Today, mini Olympics.
A totally waste of my time.
Everything is so screwed up and stuff.
I couldnt understand what the hell is on your mind.
I mean, I'm sorry I'm not perfect.
I'm sorry if I made you feel as if I'm a bitch.
But this is ME.
If you want to judge me, then please leave.

I need real friends around me. Not all this hypocritical bitches.

Anyway, felt much much better after talking to Brandon on the line.
I don't care if people think we are ina relationship or not,
Coz I know we are not, and that's all that matters. ^^

Okay since I'm talking about him, I'll just post a small dedication to him. ^^

HEY BOY.
thanks for being there for me through this tough and stressful exam period. And I really appreciate how patient you are when helping me with all my school work. Thanks for accompanying me till like 2 at night when I'm studying and you were already so freaking tired but you still tried your best to stay up. Thanks for always making me smile like a retard to my phone because of all your lame jokes and those encouraging words which really made me super touched. And thanks for being such a good listener, and listening to all the problems without complaining. You are a really really good friend and I'm glad that i have you as my close friend now. ^^
Thanks for everything.

Okay not only him, there's a few people which I wanna mention which is wenhui and yanguang. ^^
Why wenhui, is because I became much closer to her these days and I really thank her for all the times she spent with me :)
Like going crazy and stuff. I love this girl alot alot yo. <3
And yanguang, because he will randomly send me a 1111 SMS, wishing that I'll always be happy and cheerful.
Sweet or what? :)

Despite all the stuff that's happening, I'm still happy with whatever I have now :)
Long wordy post, promise I'll post pictures soon. Very very soon.

Far far away.

Posted by Thursday, September 8, 2011 9:41 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Time check: 12.41am
I'm leaving Singapore in about 9 hours more.
And I'm like super excited :)
Super hyper and I can't sleep now!
It's fun talking to Heidi about steads in our primary school :)
Short post, promise I will do a proper post when I come bak from hongkong :)
Love ya guys <3

It feels like insomnia.

Posted by Wednesday, September 7, 2011 7:24 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

HELLO PEOPLE. I'm back!
And it's September already. Time flies~
okay ALOT happened these few days so this is gonna be a long and wordy post.
Skip if u dont wanna read :)

1st September:
Teachers' Day Celebration! It wasn't that fantastic uh! Had some performance in the school hall ><
then some 6-legged race shyt which our class won (Y)
Then class party! Which was the most enjoyable part of the whole celebration!
Okay after that, went to meet my p6 classmates. Omg miss them like asdfghjkl,
And slack and talk till 3 and visited pri school!
Okay skip that part :p
Then went to relive my childhood with awesome people at the playground :)
It had been so long since I had so much fun.
I really love my primary school friends ALOT, ALOT.
Everyone is real, and no fake feelings and stuff when I'm
With them <3

2nd September:
Went to celebrate werner's birthday!
Damn wild and fun and did ALOT of stupid stuff with Charmaine, timothy, guanglong and Werner :)

And I can't rmb what I did on sat and sun :P

5th September:
Guitar prac! Then lunch with all my lovelies at subway! But I was like really really cui.
Came home at about 4 and napped till 5.30 and went to meet my my at bugis for dinner ^^
awesome hainanese western dinner with my parents and my cousin (Y)

6th September:
Guitar prac again.
Had comm meeting about farewell and went kbox!
Went lunch at yoshinoya and spent an awesome 5 hours at kbox.
It's cheap, and nice and the room is like super mega big!
Okay just had an awesome and crazy time with guitar mates.
They are the best babies in my life <3

And today! Stay at home and study like a goodgirl97.

Okay overall everything is going well for me.
Awesome people around me who is constantly cheerin me up and doing sweet little things <3

Let's fly.

Posted by Monday, August 29, 2011 6:09 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

whoosh its me again!
actually, i've got alot alot of stuff to say
so much that i dunno where i should begin from.
so in the end, ive decided to just keep everything to myself since im #foreveralone and nobody really cares what im doing or how i feel or whatsoever.
don't really have the mood o blog now.
so bye.

Beautiful monster.

Posted by Wednesday, August 17, 2011 8:17 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Time check 11.17.

My hair isn't dry yet and my phone is only half charged. Sigh.
Today went generally well I guess?
Had geog test yesterday and hopefully I didn't screw it up!
Oh and took the australian NSW maths competition thing yesterday after school.
Some qns are really retardedly hard.
Getting back chi results tmr and oh well, whats done is done, so whatever marks I get, it doesn't matter anymore.

Small little things are happening in my life.
People changed.
They are no longer who they used to be.
And it's like, I don't understand them anymore.
But whatever, if they ain't caring, why should I?
I'm tired of trying. Especially when I'm the only one doing so.

Why is my life filled with such insensitive assholes?
Can't you guys be a little more sensitive towards people's feelings?
Though its not about me, but I'm really pissed of after reading those stuff.
I totally can't believe that this people are so oblivious to everyone around them.
Do they really do it coz they didn't know it, or it's on purpose?

I genuinely hope tht everything will be fine for you,
I don't know what else I can do other than govin you words of encouragement.
I know you are strong enough to get over it, so jiayou.
I'm always here to help.

It's 11.23 now and my phone is only 61%. I don't wan to overcharge my phone. Guess I'll have to stay awake a little longer~

Pretty pretty please.

Posted by Sunday, August 14, 2011 6:22 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

So it's Monday again tmr.
Time flies uh.
Okay and I can proudly say that, I've enjoyed my two days of school and ofcourse, my weekend.
Let's start of with Thursday.
NAPFA~
I did well I guess?
Managed to get the 40th position out of the 184 girls who ran
But had stitches and walked twice.
Nvm, there's always next year :D
And I wanna tell all my friends out there, regardless what position you got, you have done your best :)
After that went dinner with Xavier and joycelina, which was quite enjoyable as well I guess :)

Friday, is always my favorite day in the week :)
Hmm partly because of the slackish lessons I have that day,
And coz of guitar.
Prac was normal I guess :)
Went dinner with qiqing yanguang and this guy whose name I can't mention :)
Quite funny listening to all the Kpop stuff ^^

Saturday, tuition and erm, I practically slacked my day away.
And yanguang's 1111 SMS totally made my day. :)

And today! Went fish spa with my mum and bro, which was pretty cool :)
And went longkang fishing which made me perspire like some crap. Haha :)
Ate pepper lunch and shop awhile ^^

I hope tmr will be a good headstart for the upcoming week.
Havent study for geog test yet, I should really stop procrastinating ><
so yea, I kinda became a happier girl this few days which is a good sign I guess.

Although some people are really fake and they lie about every single thing,
But I've decided to not care about them anymore.
I mean like, if they don't appreciate it, what's the use of me getting all emotional for them?

It's always you.

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Back blogging after a veryvery long time.
Really sorry about that~
okay anyway many things happened this few days.
Good stuff and bad stuff.

Okay let's start this long wordy post with today's national day celebration.
Hmm the celebration itself wasn't very fun,
But going to vic's house was fun.
Laughed like SHYT and yea, played Indian poker.
But somehow, it feels different.
And I was supposingly very happy till I heard and saw stuff that I didn't wanna know.
I really really wished that I'm just thinking too much and stuff, but apparently, that isn't the case.
Why did I have to see that? Really.
I really wished that I didnt know anything.
Okay whatever, next.

2.4 was cancelled last Thursday due to the rain.
Which totally spoiled my mood coz I was already all geared up for the run.
Went for lunch with joycelina and xavier.
Wasn't fun at all because there's someone who I really hate, he tagged along.
Ruined my mood.
But it kinda got better after going to shop with joycelina~

Took back some of our results for the past few common tests.
Not really fantastic and there's room for improvement.
English summary and compre: 35/45
Chinese book test: 37/50
History test: 11/18
Not gonna elaborate about that.

Okay now time for all the random stuff.
I'm thankful for all my friends.
I really truly am.
No matter how bad my day had been, there will always be someone who will just make my day.
Maybe through a tweet, or a SMS,
And I really appreciate it alot.

Many things are no longer the same anymore.
You are not the same anymore.
Do you know how freaking scared I am to lose you?
I'm scared that with her around, you wouldn't want me anymore.
I'm scared that one day, you, my closest friend, is gonna be a random stranger.
You were the one who made feel important on my worse days,
And now, you are also the one who make me feel so insignificant.
I dont know what's going on between us.
But I know, and is certain that, our relationship is no longer the same anymore.
All the promises that you made, as long as you can remember 1 of them,
I'll be really happy. Really. Really.
Just one.

I think it's time for me to keep a distance from everyone. From everything that's happening.
I need time to sort out my thoughts i guess.
I'm tired. Mentally and physically.

Despite everything that's happening, I'm still thankful for everything.
As everything serves as a lesson for me.
I sincerely hope that everything will be fine soon.
I look forward to days when I'll be genuinely happy.
I look forward to days when everything will be back to normal.
Everything will be over very very soon <3

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