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Charmayne,
1st Feb, her day.
AHS, 2G.
Teach her how to laugh.

Ignorance is bliss.

Posted by Friday, November 18, 2011 9:14 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

Just when I thought everything is fine,
things have to come crashing down on me once again.
I'm really starting to doubt myself.
Why am I such a failure?
Why am I so insensitive to everyone around me?
Why am I so incapable of balancing all of my friendships?
Why am I so weak?
Why am I emotional?
Why am I such a bad friend?
Yes I know, I can be a real bitch at times.
Yes I know, I'm not perfect and I have many many flaws.
But really, I'm trying my best. My very very best.
Sometimes I really do wonder, is it worth it for me to put in so much effort in trying to salvage a relationship that is already broken?
Am I the only dumb girl who still believe that everything will turn out fine someday?
I've come to a point whereby I no longer know what to do.
Everything seems to be in a mess right now.
I really wish that I have the power to change everything.
I really wish I have the power to make everyone around me happy.
But sadly, I don't.
Somebody tell me what to do.
I'm so tired to continue trying but i know I'm not ready to let go of everything that was once so important to me.
I'm sorry for being weak.
I'm sorry for not being perfect.
I'm sorry for acting how I really feel.
I'm sorry, but this is me and it's impossible for me to change no matter how hard I try.
I'm sorry, I really really am.

Cycling!

Posted by Friday, November 11, 2011 8:50 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

11.10.11
super epic day out with @theflabbykid :D hehe aka BL.
okay so basically, he was supposed to teach me how to cycle. HAHAH
im so glad he didnt go deaf, coz i screamed so freaking loudly that everyone was looking. HAHA.
went to rent a bike which looks smt like

hehe i forgot to take a picture of it though. okay and the bike is WAY TOO HIGH for me, so i had difficulty going up the bike :P and my ass was hurting like shyt after awhile. HAHA
took a few short breaks in between coz i was cuigirl97.
he taught me like step by step and i was going like "u better dont let go!" or "omg im dying" or "i can't! HELP IM DYING" haha im a noisy cyclist :P
and he wanted me to kick my leg and move so he was like
"PUSH PUSH PUSH"
so i started laughing coz it sounded as if i was gonna give birth. HAHAH :P
either that, or i will be like
"Am i straight? VERY STRAIGHT?"
and he will start laughing. LOL
guess what?
i didn't fall at all that day (Y) (OKAY MAYBE ONCE, THANKS TO HIM. HAHAH SUPER EPIC OMG)
i was cui by the end of 2h30 mins :P

slacked by the beach.
sat at the super big rock or whateveru called it.
hehe facing the sea never fails to calm me down and make me forget all my problems. hehe
so the weather that day was (Y)
and it only started raining AFTER we board the bus to go home :P
and if u are wondering why there's no pic, its because i was too tired to take. LOL

ejoyable day out with him :D
and he told me all i need is confidence coz i still cant believe that i can do it, and thus, i cant do it. HAHA

i promise, im gonna post about ky's birthday soon! im lazy to upload the pics :P hehe

life have been real awesome for me,
problems here and there,
but nonetheless, im really enjoying my current holiday life :D
hehe AND, I GOT INTO TRIPLE SCIENCE GEOG <3 happygirl97 :D
really looking forward to 2G class chalet, guitar handover chalet and 6A/6B combined chalet :D
nights all! <3

111111

Posted by 7:16 AM with 0 notes | add more notes

hey!
its 11/11/11 <3
okay dedications to specific people i love in my life :D

@Qiqing:
HEY BABY! thanks for being such an awesome friend and thanks for playing such an important part in my life. i love you alot alot :D thanks for always being there and listening to all my rants when im not happy coz i really appreciate it alot alot. do work hard in sec 3 okay? i know you are a smart girl and u will be able to excel in ur studies if you put in the effort! i believe in you k? <3 keep smiling and stay awesome, know that i love you alot and im always here for u <3

@Victoria:
HEY PRETTY BABE! smile more yo! u look real pretty when u smile :D u are real talented in music, and i wish u all the best for sec 3 music k! :D Do know that you really matter to me alot, though i dont show it at tiimes, but yea, i really really love you k! <3 stay happy and awesome, and im thankful for having a good friend like you :D

@Wenhui:
hey girl! so long never go out with u already! u are always too busy for me :( anyway, grats for getting into the combi u want :D i wish u all the best k? thanks for being such a cute friend, and u are constantly making me smile everytime im with u :D
i really do regret not getting close to u earlier coz u are realy a friend worth hanging out with :D sleep more and have ample rest k! take care of yourself! <3 know that i lvoe u alot and im always here k :D

@Brandon:
hey boy! :D hehe i wished u 1111 already huh. okay but anyway, dont be too stressed up over psl, relax k! :D everything will turn out fine ^^ hehe u are a really super good friend and thanks for being so patient with me! im glad we actually managed to get so close to each other because i think i can really click well with u :D and honestly, i think telepathy really works between us. thanks for everything u have done, and cheering me up when im depressed :D stay awesome and all the best in sec 3! u area a smart boy and im sure u will do well next year! <3

@Xavier:
Hey!! i know we are not exactly close now, but yea, i really wanna thank you for making 2011 a memorable year for me :D i still remember how much we used to dislike each other last year hehe. though we are not as close as before, but do know that i still treat u as my very very good friend :D all the best in trip hist and i really wanna thank u for everything :D

@Valerie:
hey pretty! hope u enjoyed ur birthday celebration the other day :D ur results are damn good man omg (Y) all the ebst in trip lit k? hehe im sorry for quitting malay :( and how i wish we can be in the same class together again! i'll miss u alot k :D thanks for being such a great friend! muacks, love u k :D

its 11/11/11! i wish for world peace and happiness for everyone <3
stay happy and smile k! :D
im thankful for all awesome people in my life.
my 11/11/11 went really well and i hope urs too :D

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